My much awaited Graduation

Graduation for me is the beginning and the end. Beginning because it's the start of the new journey in a higher level of education. The end because I will now finish my secondary education. After four years of excelling much efforts, sacrifices, patience and determination... at last my much awaited graduation will now come to reality.

What I feel for the incoming graduation is a mixture of joy and sadness. I'm very happy because I will now finish high school which I considered one of my fulfillment in life because through this I can go on in the level of achieving my other dreams in life. I'm very happy because the ladder between me and success is becoming nearer. But I feel sad because graduation also means being apart and separated to my beloved friends, classmates, schoolmates and teachers. I will really miss them especially those memories, laughters and tears during those painful and joyful days.But I believe that someday somehow we'll see each other again. Especially the one who is very special in my heart.... I hope our roads are gonna cross again. He'll be the one that I will miss the most and I admit that the most hurting thing about my graduation is that I'll never see him again more often because there's a possibility that he'll be studying in other school. It hurts to be apart and not seeing him because I adore him so much. I can't do anything to stop it from happening. Only I can do is to do what I need to do . I'll prioritize my studies while waiting for him and if we really meant for each other....love will find a way!

Before I forget... let me have the opportunity to acknowledge those people who are a part of my success in my studies. Thanks to my friends, classmates and schoolmates for their helping hand and golden time that they offered to me in times of troubles. Thank you very much to my dynamic teachers for their concerns and sacrifices for teaching us those significant lessons in life that I can use as my weapon in my next journey. And thank you very much to my beloved parents who are very supportive and who are never tired of advising, sermoning and sacrificing for the best of me. And most of all I would like to express my overwhelming gratitude to the ONE who is in control of my life...the ONE who helped me the most during those times that I cannot avail no help. Thank you very much FATHER ALMIGHTY.... I will not be here where I am today without YOU.

I know that to say thank you is not enough to pay for all the good things you did to me. But don't you worry because I will cherish all the memories for the rest of my life and use significantly those lessons that I learned from all of you. It will serve as my weapon and guide in the next level of my education. I am proud to all of you and I will make sure that you'll also become proud of me in the future.

A very Interesting and Challenging Lesson

Video and movie making with the use of Windows Movie Maker???? How amazing, interesting and a little bit challenging. I learned the worthy uses of WMM, it's different parts like the monitor, story board, movie task pane, toolbars, etc. I also learned how to drag the pictures and how to put transitions and effects to the pictures. And also putting a title and lyrics on the video we are making as a group, you just need to click on the Edit Movie of the movie task pane then type what you need to type and click on the add a title on the page below.

WMM is my favorite among all the lessons in ICT because movie making is a challenging and a hard one activity so there's still a room for problems I encountered such as the unavoidable hanging up of our exercises we are doing, the need of more time to research lyrics and to upload pictures and music.

How do I addressed those problems? Through the assistance of our beloved ICT teacher, Mrs. Vera Cruz and with the help of my expert classmates in the field of WMM, nothing is impossible to solve! We have learned and finished it rightfully and successfully. And as the saying goes: Patience is the key to everything and therefore I conclude that without having the patience of doing such activity.... you can never finish it properly.

Moving on....I'll be more patient and inquisitive on seeking more knowledge about WMM because I believe I can use it in the future because of the course I am going to take up. And maybe someday, somehow....I'll be a vatican movie director someday or music composer where WMM is very important tool I can apply. But who knows what lies ahead????

"Dont wanna be a wall flower again!"

"I don't want to be a wallflower again!"---these are the phrases my mind keep on blurting as I was thinking about the Juniors Seniors Promenade. It's a shame thing to admit that I stayed only as a decoration last JS Prom that's why I did not enjoy it and so no one can blame me if I choose not to come. I am just afraid to experience again the disappointment, frustration, self-hurt, and self-pity of knowing that no one is interested or do not like to dance with me, perhaps because of my physical appearance. It's not because I'm a pessimistic person that's why I'm very negative thinker but its really because I know and I can feel its true and I feel bad about it and it also lessen my self-confidence and my self-esteem.

My adviser said that events like that is a way of improving one's social life and I agree with him. If you are going to rate me... I'm really poor in that aspect because I'm a kind of person who prefer to be alone. I don't want to be out of place but I'm aloof. I find JSProm as a waste of time but because of one very special person in my heart , my personal view to it totally changed as one big opportunity to be with him.

Because of him... I have the will to attend in that moment so even how hard it maybe I find ways to be able to come. Even though we are in the state of financial crisis I find ways to have something to wear. Even though I'm not comfortable of coming because I have my first day of menstruation I promise to myself I try my best to come. Although I don't want to experience those hurts again I still need to come for him even my feelings is at stake . That time, I surely decided to attend the event but because of knowing one hurting truth about him, my recent decision absolutely changed. I don't want to go anymore, because I realized I have no reason to go at all. I've just wasted my time dreaming and hoping about him.

Truth wake my sleeping fantasy which really hurts me too deep. Yes... I see those pain as miserably negative but I also learned an important lesson on how to accept reality and handle the pain it causes with courage, strength and determination to stand up. I learned to look at the brightest side of life and get out of my frustration with a new smile of welcome in the in coming hurts of my life which is more severe.

PROUD OF DOING MY BEST

January 19, 2009- I went to school in the afternoon to take our examination for the third quarter. And oh my God... nothing has changed with me because as usual I'm still one of the "late comers" of IV- Rizal even in the special day of our examination. I'm worried about myself because I might be shamed or scolded by our beloved adviser... but thank God because he's very understanding and considerate as what he said. I did not really planned or intended to be late again because I prepared myself to come on time but unfortunately it did not happened as I expected, perhaps because of my slowness to do things and of so many household chores I must be doing in the absence of my mother.

I find our test questions slight easy for the first day of our P.T. because I really reviewed well on those subjects. And imagine, I even sacrifice my desire to go on the parade during thew DepEd day last Friday just to have enough time to review. From Jan. 16-18.... I focused myself to review and it's damn funny because the things that I memorized visited me even in my dreams so I therefore conclude that I did not sleep well during those nights.

What's new under the sun during Jan. 20??? Good for me because I did not came late for the first time in history. Our second day of P.T. is a day of pressure and nervousness simply because our test questions are very difficult especially in Mathematics. You should have heavy-lasting memory in reviewing those subjects that are included in our 2nd day of P.T. 'cuz almost all the questions are identification and one thing is that I did not reviewed well in those subjects because of not having enough time.

Until the day comes for our checking... Thank God because I can now relax my mind and breathe comfortably without pressure. Even though the results of my tests are not high as I expected I can say that I'm so happy and contented simply because I did my best-that's what made me proud of myself.

Christmas of Resentment and Forgiveness

My holiday vacation experience is not just limited to the relaxing activities like sleeping, watching television, eating a plenty of food, roaming around, unwinding with family and friends, etc. It is a matter of learning, surviving and accepting reality that I hardly faced that moment. It's different and great holiday vacation for me because it is the time that I experienced the most horrible, unacceptable, and great struggles of my life.

They say Christmas season is the time of giving and a time of joy with your family. But the condition did not became reality for me. I spent my Christmas alone. Feeling hardly the bitterness of loneliness and isolation. My heart is like broken into pieces upon knowing that the happy family I have once will I experience no more!

My heart is filled with grudge and resentment to my mother because she abandoned us without even saying goodbye... and worst she let us suffer all the consequences of the problems she made. How dare her??? But then I heard from someone that Christmas is a time of forgiveness so I realized that I need to pardon my mother. Forgiveness helped me to accept reality. I had proven again that challenges strengthen YOU which I think the real purpose of GOD why He gave me those hurts and pain.

I am so grateful for the new strength and spirit which is my greatest weapon in the journey of my life. As the new year comes, new hope prevails my heart again.... hoping that someday, somehow....my broken family will turn back into whole!

Wonderful and Irritateful

Font attributes, adding images and hyperlink......those are the significant learnings that I absorbed during our ICT class. Learning those things made me a full clever for the preparation of my being a virtuoso in computer application.

Exercises applications brought me to reaching the proper efficiency of applying those numerous tags which are easy enough to type but somewhat irritating when it needs enough efforts and patient in typing those close quotations, angle brackets, equal signs,etc.

What stay me too long in front of the computer is the absence of the images. I am irritated because I think I followed the right instructions but how come that the images does not appear? I tried everything... I changed the other tags and avail help from my classmates in order to finish my exercise in hyperlink but unfortunately... still the images does not appear. Until somehow... I have the courage to ask my pretty teacher in ICT and at last she assisted me to make my exercises done better and quickly. Thank you for her for telling me the hidden shortcut of the hyperlink application.

It's a wonderful and irritateful experience. Wonderful because I can't imagine that with just the help of those simple tags, you can create a beautiful website! Somewhat irritating because of the long time I wait just to come up with the appearance of the images and those wasted time and efforts in typing those numerous tags because there's a hidden shortcut. But it's okey and I assure that those learnings will be very beneficial as I will apply it in my everyday life as well as in the future.

What a Heck??!!

The second quarter is over. As the month of November goes on we are already starting the third quarter with our new lessons in ICT.

I absorbed some of the substance of the knowledge of what my teacher is talking about.I am now aware of how to put a background and color to a document.

I am so proud and grateful because at last my learnings on how to create a website is little by little filled in to my delicate brain. Through the use of exercises that was given by our teacher, my knowledge on how to put a background and color to a web document is applied.

It is aWESome easy, you just need to follow the instructions and no more! But of course, you also need to understand what are you doing so that your mind will fully absorbed the knowledge it can offer because it's worth remembering!